tadaa it's 00.00 - sunday, 17 august 2014. The 69th birthday of indonesia a.k.a the independence day of indonesia. I am not actually going to post something about today's special day. I'm going to post something different instead.
My sisters are one of my greatest inspiration on decisions i made. They are my moodbooster on every bad times i had. I must confess, i've been dealing with someone i really really do love -not my sisters - and someone who i always put in my prayers. But i, i did a mistake, well she did too, but somehow i know she always wanted to be the rightest person of all.
Considering my answers in all of our arguments, she deserves to be mad. But considering the way she talks to me on every different or same questions i ask, i deserve to express my feeling towards her tone.
It's quite annoying when someone doesnt want to hear your opinion, isnt it? You'd feel useless like you dont even need to be there. Infact, you couldnt even fight back, well because it'll only be shit in their eyes or their ears. They wouldnt give a damn cause they feel theyre the rightest one. And you're just another person who would rather choose to back off.
i couldnt understand why she cant accept the truth that she's wrong. It's just a small topic yet it turns into a big arguments. The only problem for her is because i didnt understand the answers she gave on every questions i asked. So i asked more and more same questions in order to make myself understand. But the more i asked, the higher tone she answered. I felt like i was not appreciated and it killed me. i felt like i'm so dumb in her eyes. I felt like a big problem for her and those feelings are not giving you any good effects.
But as i said, i couldnt fight back. I love her so much and i dont want to have any problems between us.
Ily, mom.
xx
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