all my tears have been used up.

One of the cruelest thing in the world is when people just cannot stop ruining your life. you just cry and cry and cry, thinking this is how your life is going to be forever. losing hopes, lost, empty. And when you cried too much, it's like all your tears have been used up. till it left none to the other. and you're dead. your feelings are dead, your smile is dead, your happiness is dead. some people are actually usual to this. whether it is because they face this every time till it get too much and they just surrender, or they are, usual about this.

You knew there are people who actually cares. who actually wanted to help you. but somehow they just stand there watching like nothing has ever happen. you cant scream cause it wont work. they care, but they are afraid. they are ashamed on helping you, aren't they? selfish. selfish people. all they think about is only about their selves. no other but them. 

You knew that you could actually stand up from this. but it's hard. it's like you are meant for this. it's like you are suppose to stick with that. This kind of thing kept you up all night. tears keep on running down till you feel you're running out of tears. alone, nobody was there. all you can think is that why does people leave you so easily? how did they do that? how come it is so easy for them? is there something that they don't like it from me? then you realize, whether you'll cry or you'll keep on asking questions, nobody is there to care..they are all heartless.